I have determined that working during a cleanse sucks!
As I said on Day 2 I had my cleanse shake at 12:30 am which is today and I decided to count it on today’s meals. I did ok but I was hungry by 4am and decided to eat a snack. It calmed the hunger some but in no way was I satisfied.
Once I came home I was so hungry. I always eat breakfast before I got to sleep. I know it’s not good for me but it helps me sleep during the day. Not eating anything during the morning was torture. At least I could have my nighttime tea. That helped a little bit.
Once I woke up it was whole different matter. I should think about making my shake ahead of time because when I woke up I only had enough time to get ready before I had to pick up my son from school and take him to Brain Balance.
30 min after I woke up I was starving there was no way I could wait another hour plus I was running on fumes. Not having caffeine on the days, I work and the day after is very hard for me. Maybe as I continue this cleanse I will be able to but today it was not happening.
I ended up in my friendly neighborhood Starbucks and ordered a Grande Vanilla Latte and a gluten-free breakfast sandwich. I won’t lie it tasted so good probably better than it should because I was starving.
My first day was not a complete cleanse day since I slept half the day away. Today was just the opposite because it was an almost 24-hour day. I got up at 7 am and didn’t go to bed until after 9 am the next day! This happens on the days that I work. The cleanse talks about having a 12-hour window between your meals to achieve a deep clean. Shouldn’t be a problem if I was sleeping but when I am awake it is harder. Still, I was going to try.
Verdict: I failed miserably.
Well at least I tried. I had my pumpkin shake at 12:30 am that way when I woke up at 1 pm I would have an empty stomach for 12 hours but around 4 am I was starving. I was bummed but I have to listen to my body, right? I had an apple with almond butter and some nuts but it truly didn’t satisfy. I wanted breakfast. I supposed other people did too so I just sucked it up.
Overall, it wasn’t perfect, it wasn’t great but I didn’t cheat and that counts for something.
My first day didn’t go as planned but I made the most of it. I had planned to get up, drink my first shake, take my son to school and then go to exercise. Instead after I dropped him off I went back to sleep.
I was exhausted from working the last three nights and not sleeping well on Monday night. I knew I needed to catch up and catch up I did. I slept (according to my Fitbit) for 2 hours and 49 minutes. Once I woke up I felt so much better. Tonight, I will go to bed early and continue to sleep. I am going to try and get as close as 8 hours sleep as I can when I am not working.
Overall, I feel good about how I ate. I forgot to take my cleanse supplements at dinner. That is something I must be aware about this since I am not used to taking pills throughout the day.
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These 242 thoughts are daily reminders to help you align with your true self and cultivate a wise, pragmatic relationship with food and your body.
There’s a way of thinking about food that’s a problem, and a
way of thinking about it that isn’t a problem, and the
problematic way corresponds to feeling out of control around
food and to having a heavier body. Your relationship with food,
which is based on how you think about it, makes all the
difference. You have different relationships with your mother,
your brother, your friend, your boss, and your lover, and you
think about all of those people differently. In the same way, you
have an easy or challenging relationship with food, depending
on the way you habitually think about it.
Here is your Five Minute Freedom Exercise for Day.
You will also find that this exercise has been provided in an attachment for you to print and work on separately.
To make the best use of these Daily Exercises, it is advised to print the attached and keep each days exercise together in a folder or notebook so you can have a record of your journey to changing your relationship with food, weight and your body.
I am so excited to start. They are actually starting out on Monday Jan 8th but I don’t want to wait and I am going to start tomorrow. I can’t wait. It was very depressing when I had to put on a pair of my fat jeans this last weekend. 😦
I woke up dreading what I was about to do this morning.
“Do I have to?” I asked myself as I took one big breath. “Can I just go forget about taking measurements and live a normal life?”
Sure, I could, but I know I won’t be happy with the way I felt about myself and everyone around me would suffer from my unhappiness.
That’s good motivation but what pushes the most is the drive to not fail and give up. Last year I joined The Camp. The camp is a place where they promise that if you follow their instructions you can lose 20 lbs. in 6 weeks. It is a structured and rigid program that for my type of personality it suited me well. I need some sort of accountability to make me eat according to their meal plan and exercise 5 days a week.
I hate to say this but I just can’t do it on my own. I am too weak-willed and easily give in to excuses. This program was just what I needed and I lost 22 lbs. in 6 weeks. I was ecstatic and so proud of myself and rejoiced that others were super proud of me as well. I thought this is it I did it and I won’t ever go back to being the weight I was.
I wish I could tell you that was the case but it wasn’t and once the program ended I slowly started to gain the weight back due to the holidays and other family events. I gained some weight but I was still happy with myself and I was still working out and eating relatively well. Then as time went on I stopped working out and I was surprised how fast I was gaining weight. I couldn’t believe it. I was still eating clean and it was clear that my diet alone wasn’t the answer. I went back to The Camp in May and did a 21-day detox that worked wonderfully for me. Not only did I lose weight but inches as well. I was in high heaven.
(((Fit body here we come)))
Or so I thought.
June came and went, Nov left rather quickly and now it’s December and I am at my heaviest.
My thoughts were confirmed this morning and while I am sad and disappointed I am going to use these emotions to keep me motivated and on track.
While I like the idea of having someone, whether is a place or person, motivate me to stay on track I’ve seen in this last year that this is not sustainable in the long run. People have their own lives and while the places are available 24/7 they can get expensive. So, I think I need to find a way to make myself accountable. I just don’t know what that is right now. 😦
One more thing, I am going to put my stats here and share them, not because I want to shame myself but because I think it would help me.
I wrote this a long time ago. I need to believe this again…
Is just like me
Is my age, smiles at the same jokes, cries at the same sad stories
Walks past me and in my mind I say
Is getting fit
Believes she is beautiful but why does my mind demean her?
Is loving the way her clothes fit but why does my mind run to the way her clothes don’t look right
Is trying to change me from my misperceptions of pretty
Is unique and so am I