Daily Mantras To Keep You Going

I CAN DO THIS!

I AM WORTH IT!

I WILL SUCCEED!

WHOLE FOODS = WHOLE LIFE = WHOLE ME

I AM RESETTING MY BODY AND MY BODY IS BEAUTIFUL!

I AM WORTHY OF A HEALTHY LIFESTYLE.

I CAN DO ANYTHING FOR 30 DAYS.

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OMG — Breathe

 

I didn’t feel fat
Until I saw the number
Blinking back at me

Nothing has changed
Since yesterday, except
Maybe a pound, two, or five?

Deep breaths
In through the nose
Out through the mouth

You are healthy
You are beautiful
There is nothing wrong with you

A distant voice whispers
I need to believe this

Still…

Numbers don’t lie
I am fat.

Stark Reality

I woke up dreading what I was about to do this morning.

“Do I have to?” I asked myself as I took one big breath. “Can I just go forget about taking measurements and live a normal life?”

Sure, I could, but I know I won’t be happy with the way I felt about myself and everyone around me would suffer from my unhappiness.
That’s good motivation but what pushes the most is the drive to not fail and give up. Last year I joined The Camp. The camp is a place where they promise that if you follow their instructions you can lose 20 lbs. in 6 weeks. It is a structured and rigid program that for my type of personality it suited me well. I need some sort of accountability to make me eat according to their meal plan and exercise 5 days a week.

I hate to say this but I just can’t do it on my own. I am too weak-willed and easily give in to excuses.  This program was just what I needed and I lost 22 lbs. in 6 weeks. I was ecstatic and so proud of myself and rejoiced that others were super proud of me as well. I thought this is it I did it and I won’t ever go back to being the weight I was.

I wish I could tell you that was the case but it wasn’t and once the program ended I slowly started to gain the weight back due to the holidays and other family events. I gained some weight but I was still happy with myself and I was still working out and eating relatively well. Then as time went on I stopped working out and I was surprised how fast I was gaining weight. I couldn’t believe it. I was still eating clean and it was clear that my diet alone wasn’t the answer. I went back to The Camp in May and did a 21-day detox that worked wonderfully for me. Not only did I lose weight but inches as well. I was in high heaven.

(((Fit body here we come)))

Or so I thought.

June came and went, Nov left rather quickly and now it’s December and I am at my heaviest.

My thoughts were confirmed this morning and while I am sad and disappointed I am going to use these emotions to keep me motivated and on track.

While I like the idea of having someone, whether is a place or person, motivate me to stay on track I’ve seen in this last year that this is not sustainable in the long run. People have their own lives and while the places are available 24/7 they can get expensive. So, I think I need to find a way to make myself accountable.  I just don’t know what that is right now.  😦

One more thing, I am going to put my stats here and share them, not because I want to shame myself but because I think it would help me.

Eat Run Drink

eatrundrink

That’s me in a nutshell and what this blog will be about — eating, drinking (two of my favorite activities) and exercising (not one of my favorite activities) –striving for harmony.

Women and wine, in my opinion, it’s probably the closest and most fun relationship out there.
My affinity with wine is stable, strong and reliable.
Wine is always here to comfort me in the toughest of times and the most exciting of celebrations.
Whether you are drowning your sorrows from yet another miserable day at the office or celebrating your most recent promotion, you know exactly what you are doing at the end of the day — that’s right, cracking open (or twisting off the cap of) a fresh bottle of vino.

The same goes for my love affair for food. Good food is healthy food. Food is supposed to sustain you so you can live better, not so you can eat more but while in theory that makes sense to me I am not the type to want to eat to live.  You could say that I live to eat but not for the reason you might think.  I rather skip a meal or even starve for many hours than having to succumb myself to eating horrible tasting food.

Overindulging or not eating aren’t good things and I am going to try my hardest to overcome these shortcomings and strive to have a better relationship with food.

Moderation is the key!